Eighties?Khild

WOW.

2009-04-26T04:06:04-07:00

I didn't realize she left me on my mothers birthday, which is the reason i'm here in the first place. HOW THE FUCK COULD YOU DO THIS SHIT YOU'VE DONE SINCE JULY, 8 2008. I HATE YOU FOR EVERY THING YOU'VE DONE. AND EVERY TIME I TALK TO YOU ALL YOUR WORRIED ABOUT IS WHAT MY FATHERS DOING. WELL FUCK YOU, YOU'VE MADE IT NOT YOUR BUSSINESS ANYMORE YOU THREW HIM OUT THEN MOVED OUT YOUR SELF, YOU LEFT DAD. AND I'LL HATE YOU FOR IT THE REST OF MY LIFE, REMEMBER A LITTLE VOW YOU TOOK TO GOD??? TILL DEATH DO US PART? NOT TILL HE GETS TIRED OF PUTTING UP WITH MY MIDLIFE CRISIS AND TELLS ME TO GET MY LIFE STRAIGHT!!!! I HATE YOU. YOU MAY NEVER READ THIS BUT I DON'T CARE EITHER WAY.

I was watching a TV show the office on my Laptop via netflix, and they were at a karaoke club and the boss started singing Islands in the stream, and I bust out in tears. I don't have a family anymore. Its gone forever, It's time to start my own it looks like. Until last summer I couldn't wait to do it all, grow old with Brandi like my parents and grandparents before them, but thats no more, I honestly don't know how i feel, going into my engagement i had no doubts I'd spend my entire life with brandi, but now i fear failure so much, EVERYWHERE I LOOK I SEE FAILURE NOW. its more than just a whim though. I LOVE YOU BRANDI, just promise me you'll never treat me like my mother treated/treats my father. I KNOW WE CAN PULL THREW ANYTHING. I will love you forever.

I didn't write this to piss anyone off, its just my feelings and if you judge me for them then that is your issue. I fail at life ; ; thanks mom.

Don't Believe?

2009-01-22T03:48:12-08:00

what ever don't. i rly don't care anymore i'm just so hurt i come home and you've moved out? WTF and if your going to throw 3 years away on a joke. then just whatever, I'm not doing this little game of make him feel like shit cuz i'm insecure anymore. As Estep always said "It's been nice but uhh..."

my final blog

2008-06-02T15:54:29-07:00

I believe this to be my final blog. Every time I rant about anything to anyone i have to hear it from someone. because when i have a problem, and talk to "them" about it they ignore me. like 5 minutes ago. i told her my problem and my thoughts on it. and it didn't change anything she just told me what ever, if i talk to someone else about it. guess what. they're depressed and pissed off at me... oh well, thanks, to any of you who actually give to shits about me.

I'm just tired of getting talked down to for blogging.

Wrestling, a little late i know… but….

2008-03-14T15:15:59-07:00

I just found out moments ago that Bam Bam Bigalow died last year...along with Mike Awesome. At this time i'm happy i didn't follow thru with my childhood dream of becoming a professional wrestler. it seems so many of them die so young, last summer when Benoit killed himself i was shocked. but at the same time I understood why he killed his family, Look at what WWE did when Eddie Guerrero died. but i'm finally over being a professional wrestler.

Blurry

2008-03-11T13:06:07-07:00

I can't belive its been a month since Lee Died.. its like since then has been a blur... so much going on... just thought i'd stop in and leave my thoughts.

WATCH OUT FOR THIS MAN

2008-01-09T08:36:48-08:00

he runs http://stegl.info/ he openly rate schools and events for access to little girls. He is a Child molester who blogs about his experiences. He moves often.

Heros and friends.

2008-01-07T06:29:47-08:00

I ain't lived forever, but I've lived enough
I've learned to be gentle, and I've learned to be tough
I've found only two things that last 'til the end,
One is your heroes, the other's your friends

Your heroes will help you find good in yourself
Your friends won't foresake you for somebody else
They'll both stand beside you through thick and through thin
That's how it goes with heroes and friends

I grew up with cowboys I watched on TV
My friends and I sometimes pretended to be
Years have gone by, but now and again
My heart rides the range with my heroes and friends

Your heroes will help you find good in yourself
Your friends won't foresake you for somebody else
They'll both stand beside you through thick and through thin
That's how it goes with heroes and friends

biggest piece of crap I've ever seen.

Friends have done nothing but abandoned me, and heroes let the entire world down.

Growing up.

2008-01-05T20:47:59-08:00

Ive just thought about all of this, I'm getting to be an adult now. I might be a bit slow at realizing this, but eventually every one you look upto will be gone, no matter what you do. Growing up on Hoopers Island I got to know many of the older people that lived there. Now looking back, all the people I've ever looked up to will be gone. I don't know how i'll ever live without those i have left.

RIP LT

2008-01-05T20:01:43-08:00

RIP Lee. I'm sorry I haven't been around since the hurricane to just stop in. but at least your no longer in pain. I was really hoping you'd pull thru so i could sit down in your living room one last time. and talk about that day on the steps when i was a kid. I'm Sorry, but at least you got to meet Brandi, really meant alot to me.

n00b poem

2007-11-20T17:52:28-08:00

The n00b adventurerer starts his day,
Spamming the town with constant /say,
/sh {help me out} {I want to make money}
I need Gilz so bad, It's just not funny,
I needz some new armorz for my war, ya see,
Ah screw it, I'm going to IGE.

(5 MINUTES LATER)

He spends his Gilz with no thought or heed,
At level 2, is a SH a pressing need?
And then, armed up with a pile of sh*te,
He heads out to level the rest of the night.
He dies to a goblin, a /shout goes out then,
{You can have this} {money} PL me one through ten.

He searches the zone to find a white mage,
Spams his offer to them,causing much rage,
When the white mage politely declines to PL,
The n00b tells them /say STFU NOOB AND GO TO HELL.
He thinks that by cursing he looks big and scary,
When in real life we all know he's fat , sweaty and hairy.

He sits there in his room,performing all sorts of tricks,
With a sheep doll, some lube, and an analog stick,
He cants help it you see, its the party's hot whm mithra,
(What he doesn't know is that mithras a Mister,),
He asks her for cyber , but gets no reply,
Wonders why this hot mama's not curing , she's letting him die.

What he doesn't know, but what i will tell,
Is hes lmao'ing about him in linkshell,
Telling them all what a n00b this guy is,
With his lame {hand} {job} {please}, he thinks he's the biz.
But everyone knows he's just lonely and sad,
Living at home with his mum and his dad.

He sends chatups, through /tell, using autotranslate,
The kind of thing all REAL girls hate,
{hands} {down} {trousers} {jerkin} {analog stick}
{please} {help me out} I need relief quick,
He goes afk, mid battle, for tissue,
From the manthra, a message >>Im going to blist you

Meanwhile the party is left with no tank,
Not that they notice, cos frankly, he stank.
He wouldnt provoke, and when they asked why,
He said "Cos then the mobz hitz me, and I dont want to die"
He can't do a skillchain, hell, he cant even hit,
Cos he still uses onion sword, which frankly, is sh*t.

So the party disbands him while he's still afk,
Get a new tank, and head on their why,
When the n00b comes back, he exclaims "What the hell!"
"They kicked me from party, well who carez, they smell"
So he heads to the beach where the party is now,
And starts to abuse the Galka, and how.

"You are a nub, your party was sh*t,
Well you kicked me and frankly I dont care a bit."
Well, as he's insulting the day turns to night,
And we all know what happens in dunes then right ?
While hes insulting others, and not paying attention,
A bogy is coming with evil intention.

Now, the bogys a good one, he takes out the trash,
(He's employed by the GM'S, they pay him in cash)
And if theres one thing that brings out a bogy in rage,
Its that godawful combo, the warrior/whitemage.
He readies his powers, and with just one attack,
He has that n00b squashed out flat.

The n00b has enough at this point , and logs out,
Sells his gil back to Ige and deletes his account,
He packs up his back, and departs for WOW,
And to this day, thats where he is now,
Things on wow may not be kickin'
But what does he care, at least he has chicken !

Cavellia
(Formerly Fatalillusion / Demonicangel - Leviathan)